Under My Umbrella

So the other day I was walking my lovely girlfriend to E5, when it started raining. Since she forgot her umbrella, we had to share... hehehehehe =P. (In my defense, I suggested twice that she bring her's before we left her place. No complaints though =P).

All the scandalous stuff aside, I decided to hold the umbrella, and we continued on our way. However, because I was so concerned about her, I started walking crooked, and away from our destination.

She started repeating something, but even then, because I was so focused on her, I insisted on keeping the umbrella over her. After a few times however (as a scientist, I believe in doing multiple times... alright I just failed at listening), I finally heard her telling me to just keep walking towards the destination. She'll keep up with me, and make sure she stays under the umbrella.

This analogy hit me quite hard. Lately, I have been so obsessed over her well-being that I lost focus on the other things God has placed on my heart. Over this weekend, I was able to step back and turn my eyes away from my girlfriend. All the other things God has convicted me of returned, and immediately I found strength doing these things, because I must go.

This analogy now serves as a reminder that if I can't keep my eyes on where God wants
me to go, then whoever I'm leading will go astray with me. I have to trust that those under my umbrella will stay close, and yes, I should take a look back once in a while to make sure things are okay, but if I keep my eyes there for too long, then everyone suffers. And if the other person/people goes another direction, then pray it will not be out of sin or disunity, but that we will part in love.

Soli Deo gloria

Up close and personal with a toilet

So recently, the Westcourt toilet clogged, and by the afternoon that day, I forgot about it, so I decided to have one of my more regrettable moments in life. As I looked at my organic waste floating in the bowl that could not be emptied, I just hoped that the regret I felt was enough to unclog the toilet.

A few days and a few glugs of bleach into the toilet bowl later (we thought it would break down any organic waste blocking the way), the contents of the toilet bowl became a dried and flattened err.. cookie? The bleach clearly worked in breaking down organic materials, but failed to clear a path large enough for the water to bring the insoluble matter with it.

After a few hours in the morning, and the diligent work of Jacky, we managed to pump all the waste out. Of course, this was after the toilet overflowed a few time as we naively tried to flush. We decided to let management know, and before you know it, the toilet works again =D. However, we were still faced with the task of cleaning the washroom.

The title outlines what happened next. When I reached around the toilet, my face would become closer to the toilet bowl than Edward and Bella in a tight embrace. And I thought about today's sermon.


There are those who are clean in their own eyes but are not washed of their filth.
~Proverbs 30:12


The pastor described that filth was a very strong language to use in this context; it is equivalent to... well, what I introduced into the toilet bowl. He described how absurd it is for someone to think they are clean when they are covered in filth. This verse talks about how people embrace sin, yet continually see themselves as clean, when what they should do is get clean (how do you get clean? I'll leave this as an exercise to the reader. Hint: Jesus).

I thought of how my sin is filth to God, and how He gets up close and personal with me to clean up my mess. Except for His case, I keep wanting to, and do, overflow with unclean things as He tries to wipe me down. Call me a hypocrite (cause I am), but I don't think I'll ever learn this lesson, no matter how much I understand this analogy.

And don't bother trying to clean yourself up with rags just as filthy as you. Sola gratia.

Final Getsuga Tenshō

All-nighter for the last exam of undergrad! Hope everyone gets the bleach reference.


12:38 AM
Ligand binding: Sequential displacement is equivalent to two phase locking. Double displacement is not serialized. Benefits of being in CS and biology.


12:56 AM
Doing my dailies on neopets instead of studying. After all these years I still know the times for snowager.

2:02 AM
Now my right eye is twitching.... lolz

3:00AM - 4:00AM
Nap! =P Quite refreshing

Man all-nighters aren't that fun if you're actually studying haha. Praise God I passed (and pretty well too)! Just waiting for one more course, and I'll know if I officially graduate =].

God's will

Is it safe to say that growing closer to God includes knowing what He wants in a given situation without consulting anyone else, and without God saying so explicitly?

I always think of God with characteristics similar to an Asian dad (not from experience), where He's quiet for the most part. I know He loves me (Romans 5:8), and I know He cares (Matthew 6:25-34). I can shout whenever, and I know He's always there. He is love (1 John 4:8), and He is the strength of my heart (Psalm 73:26), and we will never ever ever be apart (Romans 8:37-39).

[Sorry - had to do the Baby reference. It would make such an awesome praise song if it were done right =D.]

But yea, maybe I just don't understand emotionally this whole Abba business. I'll find out one day.

Not many of you should become teachers, my brothers, for you know that we who teach will be judged with greater strictness.
~James 3:1

A Teacher

Not many of you should become teachers, my brothers, for you know that we who teach will be judged with greater strictness.
~James 3:1

A while back, I was telling God how, given the curiosity of children, I'll have to be ready at any moment to give a biblically sound answer to my children (in the future). I can't imagine giving a both a biblical and fulfilling answer to a lot of old testament questions.

I've been teaching God's Word a lot lately. You know how it goes; be careful what you pray for. Just this week, I'll be preparing for three different studies. I would think God is an absolute troll if I didn't know of His love for me.

I don't think I have enough fear in me yet. Please pray for me.


PS: I enjoy how the first label blogger suggests to me is "purposely heretic". I only have one post with that tag.

Pseudo-wiki

I used to have all these in a local wiki install, but decided it's more accessible online. I won't be discussing on tumblr what I post on tumblr, but feel free to email/IM/text me if you want to discuss =].

Warning: it is very incomplete =P.

http://yunyun24.tumblr.com/